past thoughts

Sometimes when I’m at work and  I feel down, not inspired at all, that I  just wanted to say something but I couldn’t express it well and it  really frustrates me indeed, I find myself clicking the customized notes in my office email account and start to blurt out  what I feel. I have just read it again and I just wanna post it here just to record my past thoughts. Somehow, I tend to assess myself why I was feeling that way before….

8/20/08

My heart wants to explode at this time. It’s aching. I feel like I’m alone but that’s what I wanted to be. I don’t want someone to know what I am feeling. I want them to know that I’m happy outside. This is my own burden . I’ll fix this myself.This is my problem . Anyway, they don’t care whatever my problem is. I just want to be motivated and get inspired. I am disappointed but what should I do. I got no voice to spill it out … it’s actually beyond my authority anymore.

8/28/08

I just can’t spill the words. My mind is kind of blank. All I want is I want to reach my goal.

9/2/08

I am fortunate having her into our lives. I still can’t believe she would offer that. I am so thankful to God . May He blesses her more. She deserves every blessing she receives.

anything goes ……

I’m still on my office table . Alone. Just had a chichat with my workfellow.Got a chance to read one of my friend’s blog when I got alerted thru my office email add.  Decided to open the account and just keep on browsing it. I actually feel like goin’ home now but my eyes wanted to read more any sort of  articles that I pass by. I am suppose to do my work even at this hour so I won’t get in a hurry again tomorrow to make a report but I don’t really  feel the need to do it . I  would have gotten bored by doing  it and I feel like I’d better go home  if I’ll force myself doing it. Anyway, just letting the time passes as it goes… If i wanna go home , i’ll just go, ’ayt. ..just anything goes …..  

How can you describe me?

Just for fun guys! Indeed, just for a fun! ..Feel free to comment … either negative or positive ..  I can take it,  don’t worry!..lol.. I dare you! … just be honest, ok?  I just wanna prove something… hmmmm.. lol…  well, how do you see me as a person? Who am I to you?  How do you describe me and what do you feel about me? 

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