"S" = "R"

How would I share this? Why “S” = “R”?  Who is S and who is R? I’m having difficulty spilling the right words… so funny of me… I should have started blogging this  unexpected changes in S’ life. Well, S met R…. hmmmm..you’re  probably  getting the idea now, huh!. I guess what I wanna share with at the moment is S and R are starting to enjoy each other’s company. They are both “exchanging texts” that  S and R could  mutually understand.

And  yes, despite the fact  that  S knew that R is still committed to someone, maybe at this time, S must be very careful with his actions towards R.  S must not take the advantage of  courting R  considering R is starting to fall out of love with her current bf and R is starting to “mingle” with S.

Of course, S respects what the guy feels to if at anytime R would really decide to separate with him. And S would not be the reason why they would be breaking up. S is just trying to be friendly to R and whatever this might be leading to, no one could ever tell.

Though S is really feeling excited with this new scenario that is happening in his life, maybe S shall take time to study his feelings towards R  and not to be too emotional. S must think this thoroughly so he won’t regret this later on. 

That’s it for now.

S U P E R M A N

When people ask me , what kind of 

“Superhero” I want myself to be called for,  I would definitely tell them, I’d like to be called as “SUPERMAN”. My “Angel” used this again to sort of “alphabetize” or communicate her unconditional acceptance of my friendship to her . Here’s my second memoir…..

S –a iyo lang me nagtiwala ng ganito,,S u ko lang cnasabi din ito,, sana nga lang pahalagahan mo at wag kalimutan

U—nos may dumating, ashan mong ako’y nandirito pa rin…di magbabago o ni hindi maglalaho,,,,,alab ng pagkakaibigan ay mananatili hanggang aking kamatayan

P—uno ng pag-asa ang puso ko ngayon sapagkat pinatunayan mo sakin na maari ulit akong magtiwala sa isang taong tulad mo….

E—wan ko ba kung bakit sayo’y wala akong alinlangan, alam kong pag kasama kay ako’y masaya,, nawawala kalungkutan ko at agam-agam

R—egalo ka sa kin ng Maykapal,,ang tulad mo ang aking dinadasal…Salamat at Siya’y nakinig at ikay binigay sakin..

M—aaaring di ako perpekto,,baliw.,,, di tulad ng mga nakikilala mo pero ito lang masasabi ko sa lahat ng oras di kita bibiguin.,,asahan mo…yan ang pangako ko sayo..

A—raw ko’y nasisira kapag msma ang yung timpla,, masama rin ang pakiramdam kung may skit ka,, naiinis din kapag inis ka,,,sumasaya kapag masaya ka,,,,ano man ang yung ugali sigurado kong ako’y mahahawa…

N-ung nakilala ka naging kumpleto buhay ko,,,pakiramdam ko kahit ano mangyari basta kasama ka masaya na ko…di na ko nangangailangan ng iba..ikaw lang sapat na…maging tunay mong kaibigan,,,”ang sarap na ng buhay ko,, kuntento’t sapat na”…..

S H E R W I N

This is what I am talking about. My first memoir to share  with. My bestfriend whom she called herself as “Angel”composed this to me. She used my alphabet’s name to describe or express  her feelings towards me. It was the time, she’s learning to appreciate what I am doing to her. I remember that was the time she really felt my sincerety when I told her that I considered her as my bestfriend in our department.  Here it is….

S - omeday u will know how much you mean to me, coz

H - aving you makes me out of the blue, knowing that   

      life is full of colors and full of excitement

E - verytime your here at my side i know that there’s

     someone i can lean on and can trust a lot

R - eality bites that im lucky enough for having you in my

      Life

W - ith you I can express my feelings without

       pretentions, limitations and without extend to my  limits

I - know our friendship will be last forever, endlessly,

    and till the end of time

N - o one can compare to you and for me your one of a kind, the 

      only one in my heart…...

past "memoirs"

Whenever my friends give and send me a short or long “personal notes” on how they give value of who and what I am to them, how they appreciate me as a person, how they feel about me, I have this habit to treasure those unpretentious and hearty “notes”. I usually do “copying and pasting” those notes in my PC, gather them, make a file out of it and save it in a certain folder so I could easily retrieve them.

Every time that I don’t feel good, I find myself reading these stuffs. It somewhat alleviates my wallowing to self-pity. These notes are kind of reminding me that I am not alone and that I am being loved. That, there is a still one person or one friend that truly loves and understands me. Here now, I would like to post and share them one at a blog.

I hate "PINK"!?

Whoaw! Got you surprised?!. Even myself actually. Well, I like seeing pink as a background but never I imagine myself would choose this color as my page template or page layout, indeed! .. lol… In fact, I never used pink color as my page template to any of my website accounts. This is really my first time. Maybe, I just like the idea of “something opposite” you know…whatever that means…lol…

I believe, many would raise their eyebrows on me. …. lol…. very strange of me or not at all!?..lol… Well, I’m not sure what they’re gonna think of me.. Whatever! …lol…As for me, when I came across and previewed this template, I just can’t take my eyes off of it. It’s very striking, very inviting actually and anyone would surely pay much attention to it. Funny is, the sample Main Page title displays there is ‘Mr Skippy”. I’m not pretty sure what actually ‘Skippy” means though…lol…Anyone? Care to clear it up to me? …lol…

So I just thought since ‘Mr Skippy” is being displayed there, I thought it’s ok for me to use that pinky color as my page background.. lol… Nevertheless, as for me, there’s nothing wrong with it.. Apparently, Pink is beautiful, huh!.

So I don’t think I really hate “PINK” …lol… Cheers!!!

I believe in Prayer…

This is just an edited excerpt from forwarded emails that I received. I find it pretty cute and cool!!!

I believe in prayer. It’s the best way to draw strength from heaven.

HANDY LITTLE CHART - GOD HAS A POSITIVE ANSWER:  

 The first sentence is pretty powerful!

To "YOU":

You know bloggie, before I subscribed for a Multiply account. I didn’t pay much attention to it. In fact, I had a little “Contacts” yet on that account. I just recently updated it and started to do some bloggings, you know. Don’t get jealous, ‘ayt?

I know it’s been 2 months now that I haven’t checked you out and start blogging again. Well, I admit  I did visit you before  but I didn’t give any update or blog for something. I’m really sorry for that.  

But anyways, I know I got a lot of news to tell. Firstly, I just want to share this at the moment. Bloggie, basically, we both knew this blog alone. I didn’t share this to anyone, ever.  I believe with this blog I would be able to share my thoughts. How  I think , how I act, how  I express myself so they would know  who truly I am. Without pretensions at all, I believe so.  

But I think I need to share you now . I believe whoever is gonna be interested reading my blog, they are gonna know me well.

So TO YOU, who is now starting reading my blog, for me you’re reading me now (literally). As you read me and whatever you come up about me in your mind, just be open, ok?  This is the real “ME”. I may not be so straight right away with it but don’t judge me.  All I want is your deep UNDERSTANDING on me, your LOVE and most of all, I know this is not too much to ask but your RESPECT.  

I just wanted to be  accepted FOR WHO and WHAT I AM. Thank You!

I didn’t act, so I lost…

Two days ago, I went straight home from office and I  simply rode a jeep and just sit where there’s a space not even  glancing who am I gonna be sitting with.  Well, naturally, since we were all totally  strangers to one another , as for me, I wouldn’t care the people around me. I don’t see their faces. It is as if no one surrounds me. What I usually do is just sit and start to get my purse and pay for my fare.

Suddenly I took a quick look who was probably  sitting infront of me, and for the first time  ( well I couldnt’t remember any longer when was the last time I got struck seeing someone! ..lol…) I got struck with the looks of a girl sitting in front of me. Actually, she was glancing on the other side of the road. And I believe at that very moment, I saw the most beautiful face in the whole wide world. She is a woman every man can be proud of to be with. Take note, she has a body too.  Hey pardon me, I may sound describing her “too physical” but well basically , I don’t know the person much in the first place and the first thing that I would really notice on her is her looks. I think she’s tall too. She’s indeed a girlfriend material. I think she seems nice, decent and doesnt look like a flirty one.  She’s a  woman that deserves enormous respect from any other  men. 

As I kept on staring at her,  well, once in a while  I moved my eyes  down pretending I was not staring at her . She, too once in a while, moved her eyes around the other  passengers and I had one moment where we got our eyes met together.  Funny of me, my mind was illogically thinking of an idea. An idea or a plan  on how am I gonna meet her personally. How would I get her name? Her digits? Shall I follow and chase  her til she goes down the jeep and I’ll go down too and once she’s been  walking along the street, do I have the guts to call her attention and start to introduce myself, a lots of ideas that unfortunately, even one them never actually happened.

Knowing me, I got surprised and confused of myself too.  The last time I kinda felt that was ,when I was on my  second year college, with  one of my new classmates. Anyways, I was the one who first reached my destination. I wish I would have not gone down and waited  for her to go down first so  I could have done what was playing on my mind while sitting in front of her.  I felt bad for myself and sad as well, rarely of me to feel that way. I didn’t act , so I lost.  I just wish, someday at a proper time, our path will cross again. 

Yeah…. someday….. I hope…..

past thoughts

Sometimes when I’m at work and  I feel down, not inspired at all, that I  just wanted to say something but I couldn’t express it well and it  really frustrates me indeed, I find myself clicking the customized notes in my office email account and start to blurt out  what I feel. I have just read it again and I just wanna post it here just to record my past thoughts. Somehow, I tend to assess myself why I was feeling that way before….

8/20/08

My heart wants to explode at this time. It’s aching. I feel like I’m alone but that’s what I wanted to be. I don’t want someone to know what I am feeling. I want them to know that I’m happy outside. This is my own burden . I’ll fix this myself.This is my problem . Anyway, they don’t care whatever my problem is. I just want to be motivated and get inspired. I am disappointed but what should I do. I got no voice to spill it out … it’s actually beyond my authority anymore.

8/28/08

I just can’t spill the words. My mind is kind of blank. All I want is I want to reach my goal.

9/2/08

I am fortunate having her into our lives. I still can’t believe she would offer that. I am so thankful to God . May He blesses her more. She deserves every blessing she receives.

anything goes ……

I’m still on my office table . Alone. Just had a chichat with my workfellow.Got a chance to read one of my friend’s blog when I got alerted thru my office email add.  Decided to open the account and just keep on browsing it. I actually feel like goin’ home now but my eyes wanted to read more any sort of  articles that I pass by. I am suppose to do my work even at this hour so I won’t get in a hurry again tomorrow to make a report but I don’t really  feel the need to do it . I  would have gotten bored by doing  it and I feel like I’d better go home  if I’ll force myself doing it. Anyway, just letting the time passes as it goes… If i wanna go home , i’ll just go, ’ayt. ..just anything goes …..  

How can you describe me?

Just for fun guys! Indeed, just for a fun! ..Feel free to comment … either negative or positive ..  I can take it,  don’t worry!..lol.. I dare you! … just be honest, ok?  I just wanna prove something… hmmmm.. lol…  well, how do you see me as a person? Who am I to you?  How do you describe me and what do you feel about me? 

Start now………………..